When there's nobody home
And I suffer all alone
And I lick, well the dirt
Off the floor, when I'm hurt
And I dream of reality
And I dream about you, I dream about me
And I walk into the kitchen and open the cupboard
And take out a cup, fill it with some water
And I add a little pill that helps me sleep fast
Yeah, I pour the little poison right into my glass
And then I grab it and bring it to my lips
And I pray to a God that doesn't exist
And then I wake up in a bed of sand
With the cup still in my hand
And I scream a silent scream
Death will wake me from my dream
And I just, I need a drink
No, I can't even blink
Cause I stress myself
And I bless myself
And I starve myself
Til I eat myself
And I pleasure myself
And I torture myself
And I hug myself
And I hate myself
And I beat myself
And I feed myself
And I piss on myself
And I cut myself
And I lose myself and I hunt myself
And I hide from myself and I run from myself
credits
from Mixed Signals,
released July 19, 2020
Leon Kersken
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